Back to Work!!

This week I officially start back to work on a part-time basis (Tues and Thurs) until August when I will go back full-time. I can't believe it has been almost 4 months since Beckett was born. At the time I started maternity leave, it felt like I had forever until I would have to go back to work. Now, only a few short months later, the time has come. I decided to go back early part-time in order to help ease the tough transition. Beckett is getting so big and his cute, silly, fun, easy going, laid back personality has emerged. We have overcome a lot together in the first few months: feeding issues, tongue clippings, physical therapy, figuring out his needs, weaning from the swaddle and establishing a consistent schedule. Now, just when we are starting to read each other like clockwork, I have to go back to work. It will be a tough transition for me, harder than I thought it would be. A few months ago, I thought it would be good for me to get back to work but now reality has hit and I'm not ready for reality! I want to stay with my baby! I want to play with him and love watching him talk to his toys and explore new things around him. I love hearing him squeal and laugh. I love the smile he gives me when I talk to him. I love how he just found his little thumb and soothes himself to sleep. I love how he won't stop jibber jabbering even when you're trying to watch TV. I love the time we spend together reading books and how when I read to him, he examines each page and talks to the characters in each of the stories. I love how when Maggie or Lucy walk towards us, he tracks them with his little eyes and laughs as they pass by. At the time I didn't like it, but now I love how he could wriggle out of any swaddle regardless of how tight or how many different kinds of swaddles we used (I bought 6 different types of swaddles). I love how determined he is! There is a lot to love in this guy! I am blessed to know that he will be in good hands while I am at work! My generous parents have offered to watch him a few days a week and my boss is being so supportive and letting me work from home one day a week! In August he will be going to daycare two days a week as well and our hope is that once he's a little older, he will go full time at daycare in order to keep better consistency in his routine. For now, I will keep these moments close by when I'm at work stressed over trying to hire a slew of new staff, or dealing with difficult people. I will remember that work is work and each hour that passes will bring me closer to the one little person who with just a small little smile can make all the stress in the world disappear in an instant!

Beckett being silly!

Having fun at Grandma and Grandpa's house

where he will be while I'm at work!