This week I officially start back to work on a part-time basis (Tues and Thurs) until August when I will go back full-time. I can't believe it has been almost 4 months since Beckett was born. At the time I started maternity leave, it felt like I had forever until I would have to go back to work. Now, only a few short months later, the time has come. I decided to go back early part-time in order to help ease the tough transition. Beckett is getting so big and his cute, silly, fun, easy going, laid back personality has emerged. We have overcome a lot together in the first few months: feeding issues, tongue clippings, physical therapy, figuring out his needs, weaning from the swaddle and establishing a consistent schedule. Now, just when we are starting to read each other like clockwork, I have to go back to work. It will be a tough transition for me, harder than I thought it would be. A few months ago, I thought it would be good for me to get back to work but now reality has hit and I'm not ready for reality! I want to stay with my baby! I want to play with him and love watching him talk to his toys and explore new things around him. I love hearing him squeal and laugh. I love the smile he gives me when I talk to him. I love how he just found his little thumb and soothes himself to sleep. I love how he won't stop jibber jabbering even when you're trying to watch TV. I love the time we spend together reading books and how when I read to him, he examines each page and talks to the characters in each of the stories. I love how when Maggie or Lucy walk towards us, he tracks them with his little eyes and laughs as they pass by. At the time I didn't like it, but now I love how he could wriggle out of any swaddle regardless of how tight or how many different kinds of swaddles we used (I bought 6 different types of swaddles). I love how determined he is! There is a lot to love in this guy! I am blessed to know that he will be in good hands while I am at work! My generous parents have offered to watch him a few days a week and my boss is being so supportive and letting me work from home one day a week! In August he will be going to daycare two days a week as well and our hope is that once he's a little older, he will go full time at daycare in order to keep better consistency in his routine. For now, I will keep these moments close by when I'm at work stressed over trying to hire a slew of new staff, or dealing with difficult people. I will remember that work is work and each hour that passes will bring me closer to the one little person who with just a small little smile can make all the stress in the world disappear in an instant!

Having fun at Grandma and Grandpa's house
where he will be while I'm at work!
