Life is amazing! One aspect that many of us take for granted are the genetic ties we have with our family. Being adopted as a baby, I do not have any blood tie to my parents, nor do I have any other blood relations here in the United States. When answering medical history questionnaires, I have never been able to help give the doctors any medical information regarding my genetic history. I don't know if heart disease runs in my biological family lines and I can't tell you if my mother or my mother's mother have had any history of breast cancer. I don't even know if my biological mother is even still alive. I was always told growing up that my biological mom loved me so much that she gave me away so that I could live a life that she was unable to provide. For the most part I have grown up knowing my mom and dad love me just as much as they love their own biological children, however every now and then I am reminded in other ways that I am not related by blood. Even to this day when my mom and I go shopping the salesclerk will ask if we are together and honestly, there has always been a loneliness in that reminder... until now. One day all of that changed. It was the day Beckett was born. It was on that day I realized I was holding the only blood tie of mine I had for the first time in my entire life! Today as I look in Beckett's eyes, or when people comment on how much he looks like me, there is an unexplainable pride I feel knowing that Beckett is a direct part of me and that he is my baby! There is no question that he is my baby! While I won't be able to give him any biological information from my side, he will carry on our Korean blood line into the future. This connection is something that for the time being, only Beckett and I share!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thicker than water...
Life is amazing! One aspect that many of us take for granted are the genetic ties we have with our family. Being adopted as a baby, I do not have any blood tie to my parents, nor do I have any other blood relations here in the United States. When answering medical history questionnaires, I have never been able to help give the doctors any medical information regarding my genetic history. I don't know if heart disease runs in my biological family lines and I can't tell you if my mother or my mother's mother have had any history of breast cancer. I don't even know if my biological mother is even still alive. I was always told growing up that my biological mom loved me so much that she gave me away so that I could live a life that she was unable to provide. For the most part I have grown up knowing my mom and dad love me just as much as they love their own biological children, however every now and then I am reminded in other ways that I am not related by blood. Even to this day when my mom and I go shopping the salesclerk will ask if we are together and honestly, there has always been a loneliness in that reminder... until now. One day all of that changed. It was the day Beckett was born. It was on that day I realized I was holding the only blood tie of mine I had for the first time in my entire life! Today as I look in Beckett's eyes, or when people comment on how much he looks like me, there is an unexplainable pride I feel knowing that Beckett is a direct part of me and that he is my baby! There is no question that he is my baby! While I won't be able to give him any biological information from my side, he will carry on our Korean blood line into the future. This connection is something that for the time being, only Beckett and I share!
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this made me teary with joy for you Malaika! thank you so much for sharing it. You are such and amazing woman and have come so far in your discovery of yourself. I love, love, love that you have your son now to feel linked to. Love you!
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